feeling so lost and helpless
lately i feel so lost, no one there to listen to me..
the term family means nothing to me anymore, the function of the family is to provide emotional support for all members..but is that really the case? well, maybe not for me.. some may say tat well u can talk to ur friends abt it but friends have their own probs too, who am i to make them listen to my probs and add to their burden.i have always felt so distant from the rest of them but they dun even realise it bcos they are too caught up w their joys when spending time together.it is as if i am no one's child..i may look happy on the outside but who actually realises tat i am not?who can see there is a hint of sadness on my face sometimes?but no one cares...who understands tat i am going thru a lot of stress? and who knows that sometimes i cry secretly when no one is looking... u always claim tat u r not giving any stress at all, but is tat really true..everytime i get my results u will say things like aiya must be never study whole day play com, but do u even see how hard i worked for an improvement in some of my subjects..all u see is only the bad results..but wat abt those Bs?u think it is tat easy?come on stop acting as if u r smarter than me,u r nowhere better..u always say how successful u will be if u continued studying,come on u didnt even try,how would u noe..and furthermore e level of difficulty has gone up,so dun u dare to compare ur generation and mine..and when have u ever lent a listening ear when i need it so badly..stop acting like u care so much for me in front of outsiders when u dont even mean it..all i can see at home is ur bias behaviour. i am sick and tired of all these acting..so pls stop..
posted by ziya png @ 9:27 PM
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